To know the past and keep the future
I keep getting spread so thin on all the things I could possibly do. I’ve been spending more time with my family as well, because the older I get the more I realize that time with them is precious. But something else hit me when I was playing Genshin Impact that made me realize that spending time with them is great, but there’s something else that I lacked that I desperately needed.
It’s something I’ve been thinking about since the article I wrote that included Final Fantasy VIII not too long ago, but it really hit me when I was playing Genshin. In Genshin if you play with characters doing daily quests, little grindy things called domains, and a few other things you can increase your friendship with them. Increasing your friendship allows you to learn more of their backstory. I’ve been so busy and mentally tired lately that although I really wanted to learn more about Collei’s backstory that I had unlocked, I didn’t bother to read it yet.
I was using her in a boss battle and she died, and for some reason I freaked out and I immediately paused the game and went to read her backstory, as if I could lose my chance to do so. You can easily revive characters through food or statues of the gods strewn throughout the map, but I frantically went and read all of her backstory in one fell swoop. It got me thinking a lot about my parents.
My parents are older than the average parents in between generations. And even though I’ve spent and have been spending more time with them, I’m beginning to realize that I don’t know much about their actual childhood and their backstories. I know them now, and what they act like, and what they like to do, but I don’t know anything about their earlier life. They never talk about it, and they’re very typically conservative Asians. They just don’t say anything about it. I know a handful of stories for both parents, and by handful I mean like…three at most, each.
The more I think about it, the more I really want to preserve those stories. They’re things that are unique and important and I just have neglected that. Spending time with them isn’t enough for me and now I want to know more. If I was so scared of losing the opportunity to get to know a friend that is a character in a game, how much more fearful and defeated would I feel if it were someone as close as my parents? Unfortunately, I won’t be able to contact them easily until later in the year, but when they return I will definitely spend the time to hear and record their stories. I will push them to tell me, since I know that they would resist saying it’s not important or there is nothing significant, which is very typical of them. As long as I’m not crossing any boundaries, I want to hear their stories.
It’s good, but also worrisome, that it took a character’s life to help me realize that there is more I want out of my family relations, and perhaps even friends as well. Collei will be alright, but what about my loved ones? I’ll make sure to love my family, friends, and characters as much as I can, and to make sure I get to know them all better.
Thanks for reading, and I hope that you spend time with your loved ones and get to really know them, because we don’t know how long we have with them.